She wants to go to somebody, it’s strange she's never needed to before. Her names Araya and she had meet her biological father about two in a half years ago, she was only
14, and her birthday was in two weeks. It was his birthday when she met him, she was the present if a lifetime.
A few months pasted and everything was great but she had a weird feeling, one she shouldn't take. But she did one night when he showed the same feelings, he said he was scared and she said she was too because "It would be weird." But once they were all on the same page everything was okay, exciting and gay.
She took up on an offer she should have never done and kept an intimate relationship with him. She promised not to cheat but it was hard to be in a relationship she couldn't show. It killed her inside. And she dated a guy her age, broke her dads trust. She was never to do it again. Never to go out from under his wing again. And she didn't; at least for a little while.
About 8 months after being clean and doing everything she possibly could, that guy came back into her life and lied to her father. She lost everything again. She cut and slept all the time. She lost hope and was running dry. He still doesn't trust her it’s been a couple months now. What more can she do? Nothing... Because she's afraid to say no. Standing up for herself just hurts too much anymore.
But now she's fallen head over heels for a guy she really loves. He's so nice to her, the complete opposite of everybody else she's dated. He doesn't yell or get angry or start fights nor is he suspicious. He actually talks to her. It’s so nice to have someone that's just the person she's been looking for ages. But there's still a problem... Her dad.
They always fighting now, and it’s only decent when they're together. He wanted to make love but she was sick and he was distant the rest of the night. It hurts her, "Why do I care so much?" maybe it’s because she's still striving for something just out of the reach of her frail fingers.
Her arm is covered in cuts but nobody notices, not even him. Her lover might notice but she doesn't think he says anything because it’s too painful for him to see her like this.
So there's been this question that's been aching inside her for a month now...
She so badly wants to tell her lover the problem she has but how is one supposed to say that to another? She knows it’s immoral and she knows it’s not right but... How badly she wants him to know... How badly this is killing her.
How is someone supposed to tell a person they love, that they're kind of in a relationship with their dad? Imagine how that'd go down... He'd hate her forever I presume, he'd become that person she never wanted to see. She can't tell a soul yet she just wants somebody to know.